Sunday, March 11, 2007

feeling quite crapped up recently. been sort of taking stuff off my mind by indulging in football manager. oh wells. in my game, led pool to EPL is first season. haha. been over indulging thou. havent studied much in the last week. my revision for common test is so so screwed.

oh wells. heh. its funny how a high level of self confidence can drop so much cus of circumstances and some people. u know its nowonder i ask myself, yea we do forge and build friendships and relationships, but at one point of time, i was always like, hey, i can do it without anyone, sure its good to have them, but no ones dispensible in my life, but den i sort of changed that, brought myself to a level where i let myself into peoples lives and people into mine, in sec 4, its was great, starting off jc, it was great, but sometimes, its seems like a certain people u let too much of ur life too and a person hus life u take in too much life from u can say. its just gonna disappoint and discourage you. hiaz. expectations, wad a dreaded word...

finally went to church today after a 2 week absence, heh, was really quite happy la, initially i was like, i m just gonna stand here and stone, but its nice to praise, sort of just soak up the presence, worship wasnt as good as before la, maybe cus u cant mean the words like u used to and maybe cus ur not so engaged anymore. nevertheless. sy rogers totally rocked! haha. for much of the sermon i was like pointing wadever he said to the person on my left, but sort of realised it applied to me too. heh. and hes so darn funny! haha.

oh wells. off to study i guess. wisdom tooth round 2 tmr. left buggers gonna go. gonna be mia up to wed. heh. sigh. another question, how come sometimes ur willing to do so much for people but they never seem to be willing to do anything for u? and why is it they can never take initiative to do it and u have to tell them to, which like totally takes the sincerity out of the whole thing? and wheres assurance when u need it? and why do old habits die hard? oh wells. i feel like studying econs. lets see wad i can do.

sob sob and i m losing my svc next weekend. goodbye channel 23 and 24....

|cowpoo| 10:27 PM|

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